Getting Kinda Tired
Today I'm feeling is it really worth me recording my music podcast? Sometimes I feel like I should just record these for myself or when I record them just turn the comments off because no one leaves comments anyway on my site. It's really weird, I record it each week and I do not know if someone is truly paying attention to the podcast. Sometimes when you are doing this type of stuff on your own, I'm not going to lie it gets kind of frustrating. You have to push yourself because every time.
Maybe this is God's way of testing me to see if I truly have what it takes to keep going even when it seems it's not worth doing? I don't want to get to a point where I truly begin to hate music. That will not happen, me hating music but it may get to a point for me to stop sharing because at times this truly becomes a heavy load at times for me to carry. No one is forcing me to do this and maybe this is me just feeling sorry for myself at this time and maybe I just want to vent for the fact that people complain about not having good music to listen to but when people put forth the effort to bring good, quality music to the masses...no response. But then when you pack it in everybody wants to know, "what happened?"
I guess I'm feeling the same way that NPR and pubic television is feeling at this point. People want quality things for free.
I think I have a couple of more podcast in me and then I'm calling it quits I begin putting my focus on where it should...toward my heavenly father.
